Saturday, August 31, 2013

Quick post about Skyrim and physics...

Just a quick note...  I have suffered from odd behavior in-game over the past year where animals fly into the sky, water seems to be all around you on dry land, creatures distant from you vibrate rapidly, etc.

Turns out when I upgraded my monitor to a 120hz model, it wrought havoc on Skyrim.  Apparently Skyrim's physics engine cannot handle anything above 60hz very well and what it does is it tries to match FPS with the refresh rate.  On my old rig I saw the issues but not as bad as my newer rig... the quirks were becoming intolerable.

I recently found the solution and it works pretty well.  Someone on nexus mods posted a direct x DLL wrapper / replacement that allows you to set a hard limit to the refresh rate when the game runs.  It is noticeable when you turn quickly in-game, you can see the sequence of frames (just barely).  But otherwise it makes the game 100% better to play.

If you are suffering from the same issue, search on skyrim.nexusmods.com for FPS Limiter.  Works like a charm.

On the duality of scripture...

Don't you hate it when someone pulls out scripture and quotes it to you, totally out of context?

Whenever people (non-believers) throw scripture in an attempt to disprove something I am saying or to prove a point they are trying to make that is the first thing that comes to my mind:  CONTEXT IS EVERYTHING!

Much of the New Testament is chock full of quotes from the Torah.  (I think I am using that correctly, I might not be).  Jesus and the Apostles reference OT scripture frequently.  There are even points where you question whether or not they are using it correctly based on YOUR understanding of the scripture, but you must always remember their context, who they were, how the Bible was used then, and the fact that their context included a physical representation of God who died on a cross and rose to offer some final lessons before ascending to heaven, shedding even MORE light on old text.

And here's my proof: "Lord, the king finds joy in Your strength."

I am using old-style quoting.  :)  This is the first verse of Psalm 21 (see my previous post on Psalm 22).  Psalm 21 is a piece of scripture that had meaning to David hundreds of years before Jesus was born but it seems oddly familiar to a Christian as being indicative of GOD'S victory on the cross.  It is as if the Psalmist wrote this knowing what would happen in the future.  This is what I mean when I mention the duality of scripture.  

Scripture isn't REALLY dual natured, it is what it is, but it is enduring.  The thoughts and reasons behind ancient scripture can still be applied today (even scripture that seems irrelevant to this day and age has a message behind it that you need to ponder.  Read it in the context of the time, the location and the state of the people to whom it refers and you will most likely be able to better understand what it means).

Scripture speaks to the will and nature of God; it is eternal.

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Psalm 21

1 Lord, the king finds joy in Your strength.
How greatly he rejoices in Your victory!
2 You have given him his heart’s desire
and have not denied the request of his lips.
3 For You meet him with rich blessings;
You place a crown of pure gold on his head.
4 He asked You for life, and You gave it to him—
length of days forever and ever.
5 His glory is great through Your victory;
You confer majesty and splendor on him.
6 You give him blessings forever;
You cheer him with joy in Your presence.
7 For the king relies on the Lord;
through the faithful love of the Most High
he is not shaken.
8 Your hand will capture all your enemies;
your right hand will seize those who hate you.
9 You will make them burn
like a fiery furnace when you appear;
the Lord will engulf them in His wrath,
and fire will devour them.
10 You will wipe their descendants from the earth
and their offspring from the human race.
11 Though they intend to harm you
and devise a wicked plan, they will not prevail.
12 Instead, you will put them to flight
when you aim your bow at their faces.
13 Be exalted, Lord, in Your strength;
we will sing and praise Your might.

Psalm 22

In my ongoing read through of the Bible, I have reached Psalm 22, arguably my favorite and one of the most important (to me anyway) Psalms.  The book of Matthew, the Gospel which convinced me when I was younger that Jesus is God and that the Bible speaks Truth, records that just before Jesus dies on the cross he speaks "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?"

Each Gospel ends slightly differently and I should note that each Gospel READS differently.  All share some similarities but parts of the text (not just the end) vary in sequence and in content.  Some people believe this is a problem (those who tend not to believe in Jesus, really) but remember, these are written accounts from different eye witnesses and it is PERFECTLY natural for each account to vary quite a bit.  People focus on what is important to THEM or what catches their eye or ear.  But back on topic.

At the end of Matthew it is written that Jesus references Psalm 22.  Back then, people did not reference books, chapters and verses, they simply indicated a section of scripture by stating the first verse.  SOME people believe that Jesus actually recited all of Psalm 22 on the cross and the writer was simply referencing that instead of writing the entire Psalm, but I think it likely he was simply referencing the verse as he was hung on a cross and such a long Psalm would be difficult to recite in His state.

So what did Jesus say with his dying breath?

I won't post up Psalm 22 here... you can look it up and read it for yourself (is that rude?  Sorry I am not trying to be rude).  But BASICALLY it is both descriptive of His end and a statement as to the present and future when He dies.  If you've read Psalm 22 you understand what I mean.  It is as if the writer sat at the foot of the cross writing the Psalm.  The end of the Psalm is indicative of what happened next:  Jesus arose, and fulfilled God's purpose, and the Word was shared from generation to generation.  Really, it's Jesus final footnote on who He really is.

O.K.  Maybe I will post Psalm 22 (a Psalm written by Kind David) for your reading pleasure (HCSB version):

My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?
Why are You so far from my deliverance
and from my words of groaning?
My God, I cry by day, but You do not answer,
by night, yet I have no rest.
But You are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
Our fathers trusted in You;
they trusted, and You rescued them.
They cried to You and were set free;
they trusted in You and were not disgraced.
But I am a worm and not a man,
scorned by men and despised by people.
Everyone who sees me mocks me;
they sneer and shake their heads:
“He relies on the Lord;
let Him rescue him;
let the Lord deliver him,
since He takes pleasure in him.”
You took me from the womb,
making me secure while at my mother’s breast.
10 I was given over to You at birth;
You have been my God from my mother’s womb.
11 Do not be far from me, because distress is near
and there is no one to help.
12 Many bulls surround me;
strong ones of Bashan encircle me.
13 They open their mouths against me—
lions, mauling and roaring.
14 I am poured out like water,
and all my bones are disjointed;
my heart is like wax,
melting within me.
15 My strength is dried up like baked clay;
my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth.
You put me into the dust of death.
16 For dogs have surrounded me;
a gang of evildoers has closed in on me;
they pierced my hands and my feet.
17 I can count all my bones;
people look and stare at me.
18 They divided my garments among themselves,
and they cast lots for my clothing.
19 But You, Lord, don’t be far away.
My strength, come quickly to help me.
20 Deliver my life from the sword,
my only life from the power of these dogs.
21 Save me from the mouth of the lion!
You have rescued me
from the horns of the wild oxen.
22 I will proclaim Your name to my brothers;
I will praise You in the congregation.
23 You who fear Yahweh, praise Him!
All you descendants of Jacob, honor Him!
All you descendants of Israel, revere Him!
24 For He has not despised or detested
the torment of the afflicted.
He did not hide His face from him
but listened when he cried to Him for help.
25 I will give praise in the great congregation
because of You;
I will fulfill my vows
before those who fear You.
26 The humble will eat and be satisfied;
those who seek the Lord will praise Him.
May your hearts live forever!

27 All the ends of the earth will remember
and turn to the Lord.
All the families of the nations
will bow down before You,
28 for kingship belongs to the Lord;
He rules over the nations.
29 All who prosper on earth will eat and bow down;
all those who go down to the dust
will kneel before Him—
even the one who cannot preserve his life.
30 Their descendants will serve Him;
the next generation will be told about the Lord.
31 They will come and tell a people yet to be born
about His righteousness—
what He has done.

Saturday, August 3, 2013

2 Songs

There are two songs that I can think of off the top of my head that make me tear up.  There is actually a third song that causes me to tear up but I forget the title, it's a hymn, it might be "As the Deer Pants".  One of those songs was part of a Wednesday night class and it was used to introduce the topic of the importance of parenting.

The two songs that really get to me are "The Cat's In The Cradle" and "The Little Drummer Boy".  I know everyone can understand why the former causes me to tear up, but the latter?  I am not sure if I can explain it well but let me try.  I'll start with a summary of the lyrics:

I am a poor boy too
I have no gift to bring
That's fit to give the king
Shall I play for You
On my drum?
...
I played my drum for Him
I played my best for Him
Then He smiled at me
Me and my drum

I guess what it is is this:  Here's a boy who feels he has nothing to offer, he owns nothing but a drum.  He does the only thing he CAN do for the King, and that's to play on his drum which he does and it pleases the King.  To me this is a song of hope and redemption.  The boy has nothing to give to God, indeed none of has anything to offer to God that isn't already his, including our possessions.  One thing he can do is to offer up his heart, in this case his music which was the thing in life he most enjoyed and what defined him, to God, and that is what pleased God.

So, a poor boy comes before God, who owns nothing, has nothing to offer anyone and he knows it.  How can he honor the creator of the universe?  What can he possibly do, what can he possibly give to He who literally has it ALL.  He can play his drum.  He makes music for God.  And God smiles back at him.

I know I am not explaining myself well, certainly not well enough to convey what I am feeling by the time "Then He smiled at me" is sung, and tears are streaming down my cheeks.  God loves us all.  He doesn't love us for our "gold" or "incense"... He loves His children because we ARE His children, his creation.  We have a choice, to love Him back or ignore Him.  And what we have to give him is OUR love.  Prayers, praise, song, dance, helping others, loving others or simply taking in nature are all ways of showing our love for Him, and making Him smile back at us.